Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Discipline

noun: doing something you even when you don't want to


Discipline is the virtue of the month in Michael's church class. As we were going over his papers I saw their defintion. I don't know if it was the blunt defintion or just the timing, but WOW it spoke to me.

It all makes sense now. I'm lacking in self-discipline. It explains all the things that I don't like about myself. If there is something that needs to be done, but I feel like I can get away with not doing it, then I don't do it. If I feel like it isn't all that important, then it doesn't get done. If I'm not in the mood, then I pass it on saying I'll do it later.

I haven't always been like this, but I've been this way for a while. I'm hoping now that I've identified the problem I can fix it.

I'm first going to start with praying. I know that without God, I won't be able to overcome this. From there, I'm just going to try everyday to do something even when I don't want to.

I've got to accomplish this so that I can set a better example for the Ms. If I continue on this way, all I'll be teaching them is how to get away with not doing things, and how to make excuses for it.

Friday, January 19, 2007

Slacker....

noun: a person who shirks their work or duty

That's me. Which obviously leads to my being unorganized, as explained in the previous post.

I had the best intentions of blogging nearly every night this week. Had my topics all figured out and everything. But, alas, I didn't. It wasn't exactly the best week for me, mentally/emotionally.

M4 is still sick. Another 2 weeks of antibiotics (he just finished up 10 days), 5 days of steroids, and breathing treatments every 4-6 hours. LOTS OF FUN! All the meds are keeping him from sleeping well, and this coupled with the fact that his new favorite thing to do is to pull up in his crib (but he can't get back down!) has made for some looooooooong nights this week.

Also feeling like a failure in several areas of my life. Weight Loss is one. I don't know why I can't stick to it. I know what I need to do, but doing it is the hard part. I mean I know I can do it, I lost 65lbs a few years ago, so what's the hold up??? Homeschool is the other big area. I have a hard time getting it in as often as I should, and I feel like I'm failing the boys. I mean they have learned a lot, and they both enjoy homeschooling (as do I), but I can't help but to wonder if I'm doing enough. With homeschooling, I very rarely get time to myself. Once in a blue moon, I'll go somewhere in the evenings after hubby gets home, but there is no real break for me. I've been daydreaming a lot lately about putting them in school just so that I can have some semi-alone time. Then when I think of all that would go along with putting them in school, I know that that isn't what I want to do at all. I need to find them some sort of classes for an hour a day a few times a month. I think it'd be good for all of us.

Anyway, this post got way off the "Slacker" topic. Or perhaps, I'm such a slacker that I can't even stick to the topic at hand?!?!

Friday, January 12, 2007

Unorganized..

adj: Lacking order, unity, or a system; disorganized

In case you didn't know, that's my middle name.

I wish I could be one of those people who have a place for everything, AND remember where that place is!

9 times out of 10, when I'm looking for something, I have no idea where to start. I've tried and tried to give things a home. Bills here, other mail there. Filing cabinets with files for the things we want to keep.

Here are a few examples of things I've encountered this week...

1) Getting ready to send in our Monthly Attendance Report for homeschooling. Get it all filled out, and start looking for my copies of the previous months so that I can fill out the correct total number of days YTD. Hmmm, where did I put them? I just had them in my hand the other day. Look through the 2 piles of papers on the counters, nope not there. Upstairs to my homeschool files, nope not there either. Hmmmm, where next? On the computer desk, nope. On top of the chest of drawers, nope. Nightstand? nope. I finally decide to go through the last two bags of trash, YUCKO, and unfortunately nope not there either. I guess they disappeared. Waiting on copies from the B.O.E. now. UGH.

2) Getting ready to sign M3 up for speech therapy. Get all the paper work together. Need his birth certificate. Where's the file at? I just had it out the other day. Hmmmmm..... Check the place that I promised myself I'd keep it, nope. Ah, there it is, on the computer desk. Get out his birth certificate to make a copy, and wait a minute....what's that? There are only 5 birth certificates here. Hmmmm, hubby-yep, me-yep, M1-yep, M2-yep, M3-yep, M4-nope. How in the world have I lost this in less than 8 months time??? We got it when he was 6wks old, sent a copy to the insurance company, and from there it has disappeared. UGH.

Don't even get me started on the disorganization of my laundry system. I'm good at keeping the clothes clean, but anything past that, HA! Everyone has their own clothes basket, and when their clothes come out of the dryer, they go into their basket most of the time. Sometimes the clothes end up in a big pile in my bedroom floor until I get them seperated. The older Ms, occassionally, get sick of digging through their basket so they'll fold and put their stuff away. The rest of us, well, we get sick of it too, but we don't do anything about it.

Part of this is because I'm unorganized, the other part is because I despise laundry. What's the point of folding and putting away when it just gets pulled back out and dirtied up again within the next week? Seems like a HUGE waste of time to me.

I mean, I have much more important things to do with my time....

like looking for all the things that I can't find!

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Exhausted...

adjective: drained physically

Or in my case, mentally...

I am on kid overload.

With all the Ms having been sick in the last 2 weeks, and keeping an overly whiney teething baby 3 days a week, I think I'm in need of a serious break.

I know that most of this stems from the fact that we haven't been out of the house much in the past 2 weeks, but the Ms are just about to drive me batty. Lots of energy, and not enough chances to let it out. The fact that they are getting more and more excited about our upcoming trip just multiplies the craziness. The weekend weather is supposed to be pretty nice, and now that everyone is well I think that we'll be spending as much of it as possible outside. Tomorrow we are definately going to leave the house. Not sure what we'll do or where we'll go, but it won't be at the house! We do have a family trip to the mall planned for tomorrow night. Gotta check out the Disney Store for some things for the trip!

As far as the overly whiney teething baby, thankfully that is nearly over with. This will be my last month keeping her. She is almost 6 months old and I've been keeping her for over 3 months now. With her (and M4) napping less often, it's becoming too hard to get in the school work that we need. That is definately a priority, so the babysitting will end. She's been *really* whiney for the last month or more, and the ONLY thing that calms her is holding her. All. Day. Long. UGH. With 4 kids of my own at home, I don't have time for that.

I told the hubby that this weekend, I'm taking a break! I think I'll take my SIL (who's 38wks pregnant) for that pedicure I've been promising her!

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Energy...


noun: vigorous exertion of power


M2 is full of it. Energy that is...


I don't know how he can go full speed all day long. He wakes up bouncing off the walls, and goes to bed the same way. He's the sweetest, most tender hearted child that I have, but you wouldn't know it.


He's constantly in his brothers' faces and singing and acting a fool. 95% of the time this leads to a fight, because his brothers don't share his "enthusiasm." He loves life. He's so free spirited, and fearless.


There are *many* times that I feel like I'm going to scream, because he can be so rambunctious. Then there are the times, when I can have one on one time with him, that I see the sweet side of him. He is so caring, and genuinely loves his brothers so much. He is always the first to apologize when he does something wrong. He gets very emotional when he is being disciplined. He's such a softy. He is very empathetic. When he feels wronged, though, you had better watch out. All that emotion can, unfortunately, go the other way too.


He has these eyes. Wow. Dark chocolate brown and some of the longest eyelashes you'll ever see. And then there are the dimples. He's just adorable! A very handsome little fellow.


I love that boy so much!


Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Anticipation...

noun: the act of looking forward; especially : pleasurable expectation

It's building.....

I can imagine as the days pass, it'll only grow stronger.

In case you are wondering, I'm talking about out trip to Walt Disney World. It'll be a first for all of us. I'm really not sure who is more excited, hubby and I or the kiddos.

We'll be leaving home on 2/10 and will arrive in Orlando sometime late that afternoon. We'll be staying offsite for the first night. Then the next morning we'll get up and head into "The World." We'll check in and leave our stuff with the hotel and head off into Magic Kingdom. Did I say that I CAN'T WAIT?!?!? Because I can't. I'm ready to go TODAY. Right this minute!!

Thanks to some very Disney-wise friends, I've been hooked up with all the information that I could ever need. I've researched the least crowded days for each of the parks, and the optimal times to ride each ride. With 4 kids, waiting in lines isn't going to be pleasant so I'm trying to avoid as much of it as possible. We also got some (what I hope are) great dining reservations. We have 2 character meals with Mickey and friends, as well as a Luau Dinner Show. We also have 2 other reservations at a few fun places. I can't wait!

It's going to be great. We haven't even gotten to the first trip yet, and I find myself wanting to plan another. We'd originally thought we'd wait and go back in 4 years, but I think we may have to do atleast every other year......

can you sense the anticipation??